Holiday season exists to remind me that I’m 30 and never been in a relationship. Yes, you read that correctly. I am 30-years-old and have never had a romantic partner. In fact, I’ve only once been on what I can even call a second date. The fact that I’ve neither seen nor felt any improvement in the seventeen months since I wrote 10 Reasons I Will Always Be Lonely proves that some things never change...unless they get worse. As someone who’s neither spiritual nor religious I’m not the type of person to believe without real evidence that good things are waiting for me just around the corner. I believe the best predictor of the future is the past.
When I see couples together in public or posing together on social media, I see two people who value each other’s company. Two people who believe the other improves their lives. Their interlocked hands, their arms around each other’s waists, and/or the hopeless gazes into each other’s eyes signal to the world that they once said to one another, “you are worth seeing again; you are worth imagining a future with; you are worth introducing to the people I care about; you are worth traveling with; you are worth my touch; you are worth showing off to the world; you are worth spending special occasions with; you are worth creating memories with.”